I really recommend How To ADHD’s two YouTube videos on this topic called “Wall of Awful”. It helped understand myself better and totally made me cry.
Thanks for linking it for other people!
I feel the ADHD one should be a moving step, up and down and side to side but the person is blindfolded.
Or on some days: an M.C. Escher illustration
altneratively: it’s a MASSIVE BOTTOMLESS CHASM
might also fit for “i have anxiety”
Or a staircase, but the steps keep getting smaller and smaller until it’s just a slippery slope.
I have that too… So that checks out lol
Finally an accurate depiction if how it feels. I will now show that everytime someone doesn’t understand adhd
Today I felt that small twinge of motivation to start cleaning so you better believe I latched on to that feeling and didn’t let go until the dishes were washed, laundry was done, floors were cleaned and rugs were vacuumed.
I fully expect not to feel this again for weeks.
That was me yesterday. I was really hoping I could muster just a fraction of that vibe again today…
All it took to derail me this afternoon was one little hiccup in my plan, and my entire “day-off of productivity” became cripplingly overwhelming and thus ruined… 🤷
There’s always tomorrow tho
Sometimes I just sit an look at the mess hoping that looking at it will start to annoy me enough to get that spark.
Sometimes it even works
If you’re still in the zone, I meant to clean my apartment this weekend… but got distracted.
One thing I found to help me, whenever I feel the need to clean but am overwhelmed by the amount of cleaning needs doing, is to just break it down into smaller segments. Could be spacially, thematically, whatever. If I want to clean everything at once, I’ll probably end up cleaning nothing, so I just pick something. One time it was just collecting the plastic bottles in my apartment for the deposit. Didn’t collect the cans and glass bottles, though. Another time I reorganized and cleaned just my little walk in closet. And I’ve got on my to do list for sometime these next few days to do all the recycling paper I’ve got laying around. Doing it like this helps me not feel drained for weeks after the big clean up job. I still gotta test it long term, been only doing it for a little over a week or so, but it should hopefully result in a cleaner apartment.
My problem is that I usually when start cleaning something I get into total hyperfocus mode and start cleaning for hours. And then I’m depressed and in bed for the next few days… don’t know how to just do a little thing at a time, I always feel the urge to do more once I’ve started
Yeah, I guess we’re sorta at opposite ends of the spectrum here
Either this, procrastination cleaning, or someone-is-coming-over-in-10-minutes cleaning.
There is no other way to clean.
Executive dysfunction being the most unbearable symptom that I regularly experience, this one hits home…
Whenever possible, I try to use me ADHD’s impulsiveness to start a task, then complete it because I’m forgetting everything else.
Note that it only works when my partner or other people don’t question my working methods…
A jedi is passive. That’s how I comfort myself…