I had been having a tough time this past month with work and some interpersonal feels. Yesterday was my birthday so I took LSD and went on a hike with my best friend. It was good to feel some of the results I’ve been getting from taking boxing class, as I was able to keep pace with my buddy for the 6 km walk. Saw some nice rocks and fungi. I went into the experience thinking about what I wanted to change in my life. Ultimately I was like, yeah I actually already had everything I need: amazing friends and plenty of opportunities for creativity And self improvement. Just gotta work on separating from the stress and enjoying the little moments :)

Oh and then my buddy’s gf made me panang curry and my wife made me key lime pie! And we watched Jennifer’s Body, a quirky horror movie from 2009

Hope everyone has a good week!

Supremely frustrated as of late of flakey people who make plans which fall through and considering setting a boundary around that or just not doing the labor to keep them in my life. Not sure what I wish to do at this point, to be honest, and need to think on it. With that being said, I’m otherwise doing well, on the last few days of antibiotics to recover from strep. Just a few weeks out from getting the peripheral nerve stimulator put back in, assuming they don’t blow an IV or two again, so hoping that goes well and doesn’t get infected again.

Legs haven’t been treating me well. Well, my muscles in general. But this last week or two has been significantly worse than usual.

Before referring me to a rheumatologist, my doctor wanted to go ahead with some of the blood tests that they might want to do anyway, so getting a CK level and antinuclear antibody test (among others, which I’m not quite sure of) done tomorrow.

Might help in figuring out quite a few things. Also might not.

We’ll have to see. Should know by Wednesday what’s up, at least with these particular tests.

All but two of the groups of cuttings I stuck in the ground last fall are looking promising. The earlier season plants are loaded with buds that I hope won’t be damaged by frosts (late or otherwise) like last year. With any luck this will be the first year getting to eat hazelnuts from my own property.

The bookshelf project is coming along reasonably well. Today I put clear epoxy into all the knots and nail holes in the original stud we’re keeping as part of the build and when that’s cured it’ll get sanded up. The boards for the shelves are in the sanding phase which is a slow, fine grind (woodworking pun ftw!). I’m finally up to 80 grit on the palm sander after 36 and 50 with a belt sander. Part of what’s taking so long is that I’m taking the time to raise the grain in between sanding sessions so I can get a finish that will impress my one woodworking friend.

The ducks are starting to feel like it’s spring, which means that they’re getting busy. That wouldn’t be a problem except that our bestest boy Sudo is extremely reactive to the act (ducks are not gentle lovers) despite my efforts to counter condition his perception of it. One of our neighbors was over when he had an episode, and were perplexed by how calm I was at what was clearly the sound of my dog dying in six bear traps.

Starting to be a lot more active around here because a lot of people (read: deranged spammers) have been posting uhh… Sketchy shit (putting it way too lightly) in other places (Kbin was where I was most active before) and I just don’t want to be around that.

Nothing too special going on in my life. I’ve got a lot of little early transition things that I’m working on, but other than that I’m just vibing. I do have a cute new pair of oversized glasses coming that are going to replace my geeky wire-frame transition lenses, so that’s exciting.

Seems like I am meeting twice a week with the chef girl on the regular now, we swap who comes over who’s city each visit. Things are going pretty well in that respect, but my life is still a bit of a mess as I can’t get effective ADHD medication because my diagnosis was private (because the waiting list for a diagnosis on the NHS is 2+ years), so now I have to suffer through being unmedicated and buy what little methylphenidate I can afford off the black market to keep myself sane for the foreseeable future, makes me feel pretty fucking hopeless.

Stay strong, bees.

You got this 😎

Shitty, because we’re potty training.

Luckily the kiddo is doing better more than not, but we’re having issues with daycare. They said they would “follow our lead” on what we’re doing, how we want to approach this, etc…but the reality is not that. And I get it, they have 15 kids to manage and you can’t have someone pooping their pants and not telling them about it, it’s more just our own frustration that the teachers/admin said one thing and we’re seeing another (and never sat down to map some of this out). A lot of our frustration would have been solved if they said how they do things and we could adjust to their style. This is really the first time we’ve been disappointed in our daycare, it’s been fantastic otherwise ever since we started with them.

Plus the poor kid fell in the toilet at school last week because they were playing too much/not paying attention (not at all shocking to me TBH) and has been terrified of the school toilet ever since. The upside is at home over the last weekend, we’re calling it one and a half accidents in 2 days, with several longer outings/trips in there.

In non-bathroom news, work slogs on, child #2 is shockingly imminent for us, and I’m mad at my wife for introducing me to The Traitors because I’ve had a blast watching it and I’m not usually a reality tv person.

Found this website thanks to a comment on another site, so that’s pretty cool. Still trying to figure out what the Fediverse is, but since it’s defederated, I guess that doesn’t matter?

Wife and I are on week two of our daily walks (barring the weekend, we are lazy) and I’ve been keeping up with a few exercises in between, and that’s been encouraging. I’ve always been cleaning more and have just generally been more on top of things since the funeral. I do need to read this manga I bought and this cool black horror anthology comic, but they’re not going anywhere.

All in all, doin’ fine! Thanks for asking.

I don’t have insurance yet because my work was unclear about how to apply for it and I kept forgetting to ask. Due to that my anxiety is through the roof and I’m finding I also have sensory issues. On the bright side I’m in two DnD groups and I was able to get a used VR headset for my birthday, as well as a new desk!

Not great. I keep thinking about suicide as a preferable alternative to having to work a shitty day job to barely scrape by in a slow-roll apocalypse until I expire of natural causes, or possibly climate disaster or World War III. Maybe I could do some good with it like Aaron.

I’m learning Boolean Logic in my Discrete Mathematics course, and it’s really cool! Lots of writing for the proofs though 😮‍💨

Dog decided to throw up on the bed at 2:36am🫠