The oodie is Mickey’s, always was.

the way clouds are bright white lit up by the moon looks so awesome

I’ll find out tomorrow apparently about the interview from yesterday. I’ve prayed to every deity I think of. Goodnight all ❤️

Sometimes I think there is crack in Pad Thai. I just cannot stop myself from eating the whole takeaway serve.

Gratitude thread!

Me today - went to a pasta making class with a couple of family friends. Nonna’s cooking class is better but it was still fun.

Colleague who’s also job searching told me her application for WFH insurance gig was rejected pre-interview (she has much relevant experience), and that there were 850 applicants for the role 😬😬

Hooray, I got the heater going, it’s a warmer night here.

Good night everyone. 😘

ugh, woke up with mild coffee withdrawals

I’ve been procrastinating sending off an important email for about three months now. I did 95% of the email (basically a structured essay with thorough citations) and got stat decs done to back it up, plus all the other supporting documents I need. Since then I’ve been having severe anxiety about finishing it every day and I haven’t touched it since. My cursed ADHD + anxiety combo has had me in a vicious cycle of not doing anything about it yet worrying still. I’m kept up at night with the dread of not finishing such a simple task, completely helpless to and at the mercy of my shoddy executive functioning.

Today, I’m breaking that cycle. I’m fucking going to proof read it and send it off even if it’s not “perfectly” done, it’s going to happen despite all my brain’s attempts at stopping it. I’m not happy with it, but it’s better late and imperfect than never and forgotten.

I’ve got a food question if someone can help:

Yesterday I took a couple of chicken breasts that were going to expire last night and cut them into little pieces and wrapped each piece in glad wrap.

I put all the pieces in a microwave safe container and in the freezer.

What’s the best way to thaw them now? They are for the cat and I want to make sure she doesn’t get sick.

This sounds stupid but I made a music section I’ve been trying to for almost 20 fucking years. I figured out the right formula after so much experimentation. I could hear it in my head but couldn’t figure out the right ingredients to get it together.

It only goes for 30 seconds but it’s been eluding me for so fucking long. And now it’s done.

Fuck. Finally!!!

I did it!!! I sent the email AND I FEEL AMAZING. I couldn’t figure out how to explain that I sent this way past when I should have, so I just opened the email with this:

Hi,

Thank you for your patience over the past few months, I was unable to finish writing a reply due to force majeure.

sentence about what the email is about

With this new request there is ample documentation, coherent and eloquent arguments, all accompanied with supporting evidence that should imbue a greater sense of understanding regarding the request upon reading.

Regards, name

Attached with literally what I had wrote all those months ago (polished with an hour of proof reading + fixing up citations). It was this easy to do, but apparently it was easier to have panic attacks instead… I’m just so glad it’s over, now I can finally read and action the “new” emails I have pilled up over the past couple of months!

Fucking Mozzies, it’s supposed to be mozzie season or winter, not both. >:(

Had a lovely trip to Melbourne. Weather was great. I got to see my brother and neices. We went to dinner at La Bon Ton (which was delicious, but my God can someone get place some proper lighting) then we watched the first quarter of North v Melbourne before going to see Seinfeld perform.

It was my first ever time seeing a comedian live and it was hilarious. I’m gonna have to check out some more.

Even went on a few ‘dates’ from those oh-so-fun dating apps. I get like zero matches back home, but flying into melbourne my phone was pinging and I was basically feeling like that Nic Cage Con-Air meme with his long, luscious hair. They both knew I lived in Tassie so it was really meeting as friends, but it was nice to talk to people again. My conversational skills have definitely improved at least.

Came back home yesterday, definitely caught something. Probably from my neices. Feeling run down and throat has a weird taste. Stuck a swab up my nose but no COVID.

Back to the grind today :(

I have been on leave in the last week, travelling with an old family member (a farewell today of sorts - I don’t think she will be doing more big trips). I am feeling very melancholy. So glad I have been able to help her, and sad to see someone so strong and independent getting old and frail.

Anyway this is your lil Wednesday reminder to say thanks to your body, no matter how much trouble it gives you. Getting old sucks arse