Hi everyone, I am in my early thirties and have been dealing with something that has brought me a lot of shame and frustration.
I am still a virgin.
Putting my thoughts into words on this has been really hard, because for the past fifteen, even twenty years, I have internalized the feeling of being unattractive and a failed man (there are other factors for this, but those parts of my life are slowly getting back on track.) Also, I’ve had a lot of hostility on Reddit when I’ve tried to reach out on there in the past, so the motivation to really type this isn’t there.
I don’t want to reveal too much about myself, but I’ll try to explain my thoughts as best I can.
My primary and secondary school years sucked. Being autistic made me an easy target for bullies and I was picked on a lot by boys and girls alike. Girls would flirt with me or come on to me as a joke, then laugh in my face (or worse) if I took them seriously. One classmate took things so far that she went on a year-long harassment campaign of calling me a creep and telling me to kill myself.
Sixth form and university were my quiet years. I made temporary friends in both places but I keep in touch with virtually nobody. The girls I interacted with during those years seemed stuck-up and had no interest in even talking to me as a friend. I don’t know if it’s a thing about British women, or just the overall vibe at my uni, but I just get really frigid vibes.
Don’t even get me started on online dating. As a man, you cannot even get matches or replies unless you look like Ryan Gosling, and it is disheartening to have nearly every single one of your messages ignored, even in the modern days where every dating app is a Tinder clone and now requires you to mutually match to send a message. The worst one nowadays is Okcupid, where I realised that the only matches I even get are women on the other side of the world who blatantly falsify their location in the search for a Western husband and the means to a spousal visa.
I have had dates before, but about half of them she’s made excuses to bail and then blocked/unmatched/ghosted me afterwards, and it’s not like I knowingly did anything creepy.
I’ve also had girlfriends before, but I’ve only even kissed one of them. Two were LDR’s that fell apart the moment we closed the gap (of the two, one was a Chinese lady who my German friend tried to set me up with, the other was a Japanese girl who in retrospect was using me for English practice and help with her student visa.) Of the two that were in my country: one used me for my money and cheated on me, and the one that I did kiss we broke up because of the distance and the fact that our personalities just clashed (I was attracted to her but much of the time it felt like I was talking to a brick wall.)
My birthday is in a few weeks and I’ve debated on whether to pay a hooker to take my virginity (I’d likely go abroad for this. Prostitution is technically legal here but a lot of stuff associated with the sex industry isn’t.) I don’t want to end up in my forties not knowing what sex feels like.
The main reason I’m even considering this is because I’m fed up of trying to date people. My past experiences have left me feeling aromantic, but it feels like even the rare few women who are open to hookups wouldn’t go near me with a barge pole.
Am I doing all of this wrong? I have tried numerous things:
- Dating apps: Okcupid, POF, Hinge, Coffee Meets Bagel, Happn, Tinder, Bumble. Name the app and I’ve most likely used it. Most of them are owned by the exact same company and are just a different brand of snake oil anyway.
- Asking friends if they know single women they can introduce me to. Only once has this actually happened.
- Meeting women at work. I work fully remote now so this ain’t really an option, and even in the pre-COVID days, nearly every female colleague was not single.
- Going to singles meetups. Last one I went to was a sausage fest and the only lady who I did speak to was a woman in her fifties with a wedding ring on her.
- Changing the way I look and dress. I tried multiple styles of clothing, hairstyles, etc. I get short bursts of motivation to hit the gym and at one point spent a few months going through bro split and PPL split routines, sometimes going 4+ days a week.
You need therapy. Reading through this, there is a lot of (deserved) hurt and anger that needs to be addressed. If you’re not a male model, you need to be funny and affable and you can’t be that if you’re wounded.
That also doesn’t mean you need to put your life on hold while you work on your mental health. Join a co-Ed rec team sport and get good at being sociable with people. Pick up an art or instrument, you don’t need to be a rock star just creative and passionate about something.
If you’re working out, do it because you like the physical benefits from it be they form or function.
All these things tie into the fact that women will be more turned off by an ugly personality than an ugly face.
You still can’t skip your appearance, but it should be secondary to getting your head right.
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I partially addressed this in another comment. A lot of the problem I think is that I don’t know how to talk to women beyond just friendly conversation, and I think it may be trauma from past bullying.
Maybe I do want more, and maybe I’ve given up on trying to find love because I’m just weary of it.
Fully agree that I should speak to a professional, I am part of my workplace’s private medical insurance scheme so I could see what they can offer, since getting any help from the NHS is a no-go unless you’re at immediate risk of serious harm/death. (Thankfully I am not at that point.)
Honestly, my suggestion is to go out to places that have events, like trivia or other games, whatever, with the explicit understanding you will not be flirting, asking anyone on a date, or trying to have sex.
Be friendly. Practice communication. Avoid drinking (especially to excess), don’t change your mind when you think there is a chance, etc.
Just be a person doing something for fun.
You’re creating, IMHO, a manufactured need to not-be-virgin, which can seriously make you come across as overeager or even not interested in someone as a person. Not saying this is what’s happening with you specifically, just things that I’ve seen.
Others have it right about working on yourself, this is just one way to go about it. Best of luck!
I’ve tried seeking help several times. Doctors haven’t been particularly helpful (some have just fobbed me off) and the most I got were a few art therapy sessions with a charity a few years back.
Last year after my last breakup I self-referred to the NHS with depression and the most I got was an online cognitive behavioral therapy course that I really could have studied from a book. There was a years-long waiting list before COVID and now things are somehow even worse.
Even trying to go private has been a no-go because every therapist in my city is overbooked.
Fortunately I have private health insurance from my workplace, so I may be able to get therapy through that.
there is a lot of (deserved) hurt and anger that needs to be addressed.
In what respect? It seems worded in a way that implies I deserve what I get, and that is something I really don’t understand.
Deserved as in your deservedly feel hurt or angry about the things in the past. As in, shitty things happened to you, so you (rightfully) feel the way you do. You deserve to feel that way in the sense you rightfully feel that way. It doesn’t mean you deserved to have those things happen to you. Different usages of the word.
Other commentor was correct, but “deserved” in that you’re right to feel that way. Not that you deserved any mistreatment.
As for finding someone, I’m in the US, but it sucks here too taking to virtually everyone I know who’s looked for help. If they’re booking three months out, schedule it and you can always cancel if you something more immediate. But you gotta be persistent, since no one is going to ever be a bigger advocate for you than you. Also might need to try more than one therapist to find someone who clicks.
Well, I’ve heard over and over, online dating sucks for everyone. And the constant stream of rejection is taking a mental toll on male participants. Just be aware of that.
And I think it’s also more difficult in your 30s. Most of my friends are in longterm relationships by now and are having kids. When I was 20, many were single and the pool of potential hookups was much bigger.
And you mention being autistic. I’m sure superficial things like online dating are rigged against you, because people who are different from an expectation get eliminated quicker, the more superficial it is.
So if you really want a partner, make sure to have lots of patience.
One thing I’d like to add to your list is/are societies. And meeting people where you do your hobbies. This can include anything from meeting people during sports activities like mountain biking / tennis, to volunteering somewhere. You might want to balance this a bit. Some places are more sausage fest than others, but if you manage to meet a woman there, she’s unlikely to be superficial. And you already have a hobby in common.
Other than that, go to concerts, parties …
Regarding sex: You might want to separate looking for a partner and looking for a hookup for sex. These are two entirely different things. There are different Apps that specialize in connecting people for one or the other. But don’t mix it up or people will get disappointed because expectations are different.
There are also special parties just for sex, swinger clubs etc. And just paying someone for sex is also a valid approach.
I think online dating apps are meant to be soul destroying by design. Finding success is bad for business because it means you’ll delete the app and won’t get suckered in to paying the same cost of several MMO subscriptions for premium.
What hookup apps exist for straight people? Only one I’m aware of is Adult Friend Finder and I’ve heard that one is pretty expensive and seems shady as fuck.
I have considered looking at sex/swinger parties but wouldn’t know how to go looking for them. I also thought swinger communities would only be for existing couples looking to open up their relationship, not single people.
You’re right. I haven’t thought about it like that. But makes sense. Maximum profit is somewhere inbetween losing their customers by giving them what they want and losing them because customers hate that ineffective app.
Unfortunately I don’t know either. I don’t have the slightest idea how people do it and what kinds of apps they use. Seems easy for some people. I’m not one of them.
Regarding the sex/swinger parties: You’re right. It’s easy for couples and single women but difficult for single men. I haven’t been to one. Kinda always wanted to be brave enough to see what it is about. My idea would be to talk to someone organizing it. They have to teach new people how to behave anyways etc. I bet they are open and transparent people.
Hey, I remember you from my thread!
So, I’ll lay out my life story:
- I’m also from the UK
- I was quite heavily teased/bullied by girls pretending to flirt only to laugh when I seem to recirpocate in secondary school
- Sixth form was an absolute no-go for whatever reason, had very little luck
- University I actually had a girl who was heavily flirting with me. However, I literally missed every single cue. I only realised she was flirting with me 5 years later
- I tried asking a friend out on a date - multiple times. She said no every single time and while now we are “okay” the friendship just isn’t the same as it was before
- I tried to ask a girl out on a date at work. That ended up terribly and nearly had every single woman on that floor flat-out ignoring me. Because I had social anxiety at the time and I didn’t understand social boundaries, I asked her out for a date another two times - the second time I actually wanted to ask if we were friends, but I didn’t understand the implication of asking a girl out on a date. The third time was because I made the correlation that asking her out for a date would get her to go away and leave me alone. At the time I was deeply hurt from being ignored so aggressively and then she would just randomly talk to me as if nothing had happened.
- After those series of events, I twigged that I really need to get my shit together and start working on myself. I tried to look at all my insecurities, and address/resolve the ones I could fix while being kinder on myself for the things about myself I wasn’t happy about
- I did online dating. SO. Many. Online. Dates. All of my early dates from my late twenties were absolutely terrible and I legitimately bought nothing to the table due to my lack of self confidence. Never got kissed. Never had sex.
- Eventually I would be a bit happier with myself, but I was sexually frustrated. As ashamed as I am to admit, I would upfront ask girls who I was dating if we could have sex, even if we had one (or none!) dates. I lost a lot of dates that way, and I still had my virginity.
- At the age of 31, I went to a super cheap escort and I honestly regret that escort. She looked nothing like her photo, and we wound up having sex for 15 minutes despite me paying for a full hour.
- The sex was nice but the actual experience left me thinking I was going to have my organs harvested in this dingy creepy room
- About 6 months later I found another escort. She looked exactly like her profile photo. Only problem was that as we talked, it was incredibly clear she was effectively being trafficked. I felt like throwing up on the spot and I wanted to give up sex, let alone seeking escorts.
- About a year or so (I think I was 33/34), I found an independent British escort. This escort wound up being the one I would frequently hook up frequently.
- I’ve been on dates since I met the British escort - one was an absolute dud, one despite being very nice wasn’t interested, and another straight up snogged me. Never in my life did I think I would ever be snogged like that. She then said she was still missing her ex-husband, but we still remain friends to this day.
- I’m currently living with my parents as a 34 year old, but that is changing suuuuper sooooon :D
So now you know my dating/romantic life story:
- Escort for me did help relieve sexual frustration, but it at times made me feel helplessly desperate for a deeper connection. Seeking escorts for a romantic relationship is a bit like drinking salt water - you think you’re being hydrated, but you’re just being dehydrated. However, for mindless sex, a good independent escort is fantastic, as well as them being great to talk stuff through (they know and understand men don’t have a lot of avenues to talk about their frustration, and honestly good escorts want to see you succeed)
- I would say the big thing to do is work out your insecurities and tackle them. Once you feel like you’ve done that, try to make more friends with women that, in your head, you know aren’t sexual relationships. Not only will this boost your confidence, sometimes these women will want to hook you up with their friend if they think you are the bees knees
- You ultimately need to work on your confidence - from the mental to the physical. It doesn’t happen overnight. I started when I was 26/27 and I’m 34 years now. I still consider it a work in progress.
- Do try to understand that dating is about finding your particular brand of weirdo. A lot of media try to teach men that they need to be sexual prowesses and have hundreds of women etc etc - don’t believe the BS. You just need to find the right one for you. If a date didn’t want to continue things further, they’re doing you a favour. Eventually you’ll be confident in your own needs and wants to effectively turn down women too.
- Confidence is key, and the key to confidence is knowing that she is just as nervous as you are. However you approach the situation, try to make sure that she feels comfortable with you.
I can’t think of anything else, but I’ve been in your situation and I’m telling you it does get better, with or without escorting. I’m rooting for you mate!
I remember you too!
The worry I have about finding an escort online is the possibility of being scammed, robbed or encountering a trafficked sex worker. I also don’t know what a good or bad price is for one. Prices I’ve seen have gone from around £100/hour for incalls to some being several times more expensive than that. It’s why I’ve honestly thought about going to the Netherlands or Germany, where there are actually legal and regulated brothels.
and another straight up snogged me. Never in my life did I think I would ever be snogged like that.
Reminds me of a Hinge date I went on a few years back that went incredibly well. We had cocktails, then I awkwardly pulled a chat up line which led to us snogging for about an hour straight. I couldn’t crash at her place that night because she was staying with her sister and had to head to work immediately the next morning, but she invited me to come to her place in the next town over.
Then about three days later, she pulled the whole ‘sorry, this isn’t gonna work out, I didn’t mean to lead you on’ crap.
Other than that, closest I honestly came to losing my virginity was with a (MtF) trans lady who I met on Okcupid, who I sexted a lot with. She flaked on me shortly after we met and went full ghost afterwards.
In terms of escorts, I use Adult Work. You can put in a postcode and how many miles you are willing to travel, and there should be a list of escorts.
If you want to avoid the dodgy escorts, I would say go for £150-£200 escorts (for 1 hour). Anything more is incredibly expensive and is either some weird financial domination fetish thing or just a straight up scam.
Also - look for escorts that are heavily and highly rated. Especially those who are in the triple digits; they are very experienced. Do also check for recent reviews (like a few weeks ago). If it has been a few months, feel free to avoid.
Make sure what the escort offers is what you’d be up for doing as well as making sure that the escort does not offer anything that you wouldn’t want (like bareback/unprotected sex).
Once you think you are good, add the number to your phone and WhatsApp them (check to see if they do allow WhatsApp - some prefer a direct call for some reason, but w/e).
Ah, it sounds like you’ve had some luck of your own! Well done you for getting a snog in! Most of my dates have been quite awkward.
I wouldn’t worry about the other ladies that have either flaked or bailed. It honestly sounds like they don’t have their shit together, and that isn’t on you.
Thanks. That’s given me a lot to think about.
Feel free to DM me with any more questions!
It seems like you’ve built up your virginity into this really big thing that’s causing you a lot of anxiety. For that reason alone, I would recommend seeing a sex worker to lose your virginity if you’re comfortable with that and it’s truly what you want. It’s not a huge deal and many older people are virgins, but it’s negatively impacting you so my advice would be to search for a sex worker and to be honest with them and let them know you’re nervous and inexperienced. You might need to message a few providers before you find one that suits. But the right one will be very accomodating, it’s literally their job to make you comfortable and feel good!
Maybe once that hurdle has been cleared, you can focus on other things related to dating without having your virginity looming over you. Dating is hard for EVERYONE, and especially hard for autistic people ESPECIALLY if they’re dating neurotypicals. How confident are you with your communication skills? There may be some things you’re missing that you might not be aware of. Do you have a trusted friend who could give you some feedback? I once went on a date with an autistic guy and he didn’t ask me a single thing about myself which made me feel like he wasn’t interested or didn’t care. I later found out it wasn’t because he didn’t care, but he didn’t really know how to keep the conversation balanced. This may not be true for you, but it would be great if someone could help give you some insight.
Like I said though, dating is hard, I have friends who are absolutely beautiful, talented, smart, funny, and they still struggle with online dating. I think apps have made people view their dates as a bit more disposable, if they don’t immediately click with someone then they don’t wanna put in the effort because they can just go straight back to the app and find someone else. So apps can be great, but I’d also recommend trying to meet people in real life. Depending on your hobbies, you could meet people that way.
The other thing I’d say is to not put the pressure on your date or yourself by wanting every date to turn into a relationship or sex. Dating is about getting to know someone, discovering what you like and don’t like with people, and finding out if you click. So you may have to go on lots of dates but that doesn’t mean you’re failing. It’s all part of the process. It’s awesome that you’re putting in the effort and trying to find a solution. Good luck!!!
Just a short answer here. Firsly, really good of you to ask for help instead of letting anger, sadness and frustration (that are understandably there) take over.
Even though I have no ecperience of my own with sex workers, it does seem a good idea. If something like this becomes too much of an issue it will become a self-fulfilling prophecy. On that though: I would consider hiring an escort instead of a red light district kind of situation. Losing your virginity is an intimate afgair, nice not to be rushed because you only have 20-30 minutes. Tell her in advance. Consider going to the same 2-3 times, as sex the first time can be awkward and quick, or not happen at all because of performance issues associated with the mental pressure - that is normal and OK.
As for dating, and this is the ugly truth, desperation is a stinky cologne. Thats why I think the sex worker could be an interesting angle for now. Work out your issues with a therapist, focus on meeting people who share your passions instead of looking for passion for now. To me, that’s where the magic happens. Good luck OP, feel free to keep us posted!
A friend of mine used to be desperate - he was around 35-40 and he still did not get a single lady. He was all the more desperate that he wanted to found a family, have a house etc…
Going to dance lessons has been the trick for him. Even if you are not comfortable eventually you have to talk to women in such lessons. And just by simple interactions you become comfortable eventually and then more comes. His first gf didn’t work out but I have heard things are going great with his 2nd
Personally I never did one night stands, always serious relations. At some point in my life I was desperate too. I think the key is to not think too much about it. It’s hard but if you speak with a woman with the implicit intention “I just want to date her” or worse “i just want sex” she will sense it somehow and be turned away.
What worked for me is to shift to “I would like to get to know her because she interests me”. This lowers your own expectations (you are not specifically looking to hook up - just get to know her for now) so you will act more natural. And if you sense that things are doing good you can invite her (just her) to do some outside activity to know her better - eventually maybe you will sense that she is getting into you just like you are getting into her and things will happen.
What does not work however is to get close to the person, then failing to express your desire to go further - wait several months because you wait for the right moment that never comes - then, out of the blue, ask her out and she turns you down because even though she did find you cute once, she already moved on now. For dating to work, eventually the person needs to feel that you are interested (either implicitly or explicitly - it depends on the person - hence why it’s important to get to know the person before attempting to go further)
Either way, keep in mind that if she turns you down, it’s not necessarily because of you. You might be good looking but just not her type. It’s like tastes and colors. But as long as you are clean, respectful and not too inconfident you will find someone eventually.
I would also say that when things get a little more forward, there is no shame in telling her you never had an experience before. On the contrary it might even help the both of you to be in sync
God speed out there! You can do it :)
Way too many people deal with the same stuff. My suggestion would be to sign up for hobby or dance lessons. You may or may not meet the right women there, but you’ll probably meet interesting people, and that counts too. And you may gain new skills or hobbies, which is honestly more important.
You can also get a pet if you feel like it, dogs are the best wingmen. But only if you think you can handle it.
If you want to use a hooker, I don’t see anything wrong with that, but also know it really won’t change much. But from what I’ve heard from people, it tends to lift off some weight, so it may be worth it at least for that.
Btw one dirty advice from the books: if you’re trying for a woman that’s not single, you’re competing against one guy. If she is single, you’re competing against everyone. It may not be nice, but everything is fair in war and love, right
I considered dance classes before, but they’ve often been at times really inconvenient for me.
Pets aren’t really an option right now. Unfortunately I still live with parents (much of my country is too damn expensive for a single guy to even rent an apartment in, let alone buy a home.) My parents are vehemently against getting animals.
Btw one dirty advice from the books: if you’re trying for a woman that’s not single, you’re competing against one guy. If she is single, you’re competing against everyone. It may not be nice, but everything is fair in war and love, right
Jacking another man’s girl goes against my moral code.
I’d argue the inverse that you may be competing with just one guy, but convincing a lady to leave her existing relationship or even cheat is harder.
Also, would you really want to date somebody who is unwilling to stay loyal to their partner?
If you were a girl, would you date you?
If not, what are the key reasons why not? How difficult would each be to improve upon?
Are you pursuing people with an unrealistic expectation of who you’ll end up with? i.e. If you are a 4/10, are you only looking for girls that are 7/10 or higher? Your comment about needing to look good to get responses on dating sites in particular has me wondering about this. I’ve heard from plenty of less attractive women frustrated with not getting messages or replies on those sites too. I’m sure many of them would be happy to hear from you.
How much do you buy into gender stereotypes and misogyny? That’s a huge turn off for women, and I tend to see it a lot with guys struggling to understand why they can’t find anyone.
If you aren’t particularly comfortable interacting with the opposite sex, going to things where you’ll simply interact without any dating/romance component would be a good place to start. What are you into? Any hobbies? Go to meetups for that and just interact with people of both genders to improve comfort and seeing people of any given gender as a fellow human being first and foremost.
Women’s sexual desire peaks in their later 30s as opposed to male desire peaking in their late teens/early 20s.
But guys statistically pose an existential threat to them and in general can be pretty lousy creeps, so being able to hang out with a girl and have her feel comfortable, accepted, and safe is pretty much one of the most important things you can do.
If you aim for people at the same ‘rank’ as yourself in terms of attraction and aren’t a creep, you’ll get laid anywhere from a bar to a meetup to online dating.
But for a lot of guys I know that struggle with finding someone, they fail either or both of those criteria.
If you can successfully be someone who is chill and fun to hang out with, who isn’t going to slut shame or obsess or creep on them, and show interest and attraction without pressure or expectation, you’ll have plenty of sexual experiences. Bars are good places to practice picking people up with low stakes in terms of rejection too.
Also, be upfront with your inexperience as things progress with someone. Some will really like the idea of being your first, and some might not be looking for that responsibility.
Ultimately, keep in mind that whether someone decides to sleep with you or not is mostly about their own wants and desires, and not personal. So don’t take rejection personally.
It’s a numbers game. You miss 100% of the shots you don’t take, and if you want to stop missing, you need to take more shots.
The guys I know with mad game aren’t particularly desirable. The one common denominator is a willingness to try and try again. Even if only 1% end up interested, throwing a wide net ends up with results, and in turn more practice for the future.
I don’t think that approach is a great one for long term happiness, but for where you are at right now, getting experience and getting comfortable with the lead up to sex and with sex itself is going to set you up for success much more than pursuing something higher stakes.
Also, do yourself a favor and research female anatomy, orgasms, and the variety of pleasure across the spectrum among the opposite sex. When it finally does happen, knowing things like there’s only a small percent of women who can orgasm from penetration only or basic technique of cunnilingus (find Nina Hartley’s video on it) will go a long way towards it being a better experience for both you and your eventual partner. And the most important technique in the bedroom is listening to and reading the other person. So with your autism going above and beyond with generosity, checking in, and patience in the bedroom will be helpful indeed.
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Knowing everything about me, even I’m unsure. I earn a decent wage and am on a good career path, but not enough to even rent (more of an issue with the British economy), that impacts my independence more than anything. That would be the main deterrent but it’s a more complicated thing to solve. I am looking into house sharing and renting a room with strangers as I want to move away from home.
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I’d say I’m a solid 4, possibly a 5. I have lowered my standards a lot over the years and don’t particularly have a ‘type.’ I’d only date women around the 25 - 32 range, purely because dating younger would feel creepy and I don’t want to leave it too late to have children. Weight and height aren’t that important for me, and I think I have a preference for curvier bodies. My comment more-so came from the experience of other female friends and ex-partners. Only one I know of has had no luck, others have been inundated with messages and can basically swipe right on anyone. Also a good few get frequently sexually harassed even on non-dating social media.
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Not much. Did try to study pick-up a decade ago (read The Game by Neil Strauss and a few other PUA books) and briefly looked to the Red Pill only to ditch it a few weeks later because I was getting disgusted by the community’s asshole behaviour and increasingly rampant misogyny. Also meeting someone who genuinely fears community figures like RooshV and what he stands for opened my eyes further. Incel rhetoric disgusts me even more.
Something I sorely lack is game.
The PUA stuff is BS that only ‘works’ to the extent that it’s like a self-placebo instilling confidence in the methods where there wasn’t enough confidence. But most people will just tell you to F off if you try that crap.
Much better is just go out to pubs and have a goal of talking to X number of people a night, and do that at least once a week, and eventually you’ll have much smoother ability to start and maintain conversations with strangers in your own way, and much less anxiety about rejection/etc.
I already go out drinking quite often, usually with friends but sometimes I have gone to my local pub on my own. Dunno if I want to make more of an effort with that, because I worry it could impact my health unless I go cold turkey and only drink non-alcoholic stuff.
Talking to others is a challenge and is something I really have to be in the best place to do. Alcohol doesn’t really lower my inhibitions as much as it did and I find myself withdrawing more if anything.
You might want to try it with ordering virgin drinks when out alone. See it more as focusing on practicing socialization over an opportunity to drink. Ideally you’d get better at that skill sober, so it makes sense not to drink alcohol when practicing too.
It’s more about it being a format where other people are more open to socialization with strangers too.
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Please take this as gently as possible from someone old enough to be your mother - if you meet one asshole, they are an asshole. If everyone you meet is an asshole, you are the asshole. If you meet a girl who is stuck up, she probably is. If every girl you meet is stuck up, it’s you.
If you think getting past the “virgin” part will crack a wall for you, then sure, a sex worker might be the way to go, you can explain what you are looking for, maybe get some pointers and practice so you feel not clueless. Most of us, yes women too, did not have ideal or even good first times, no big deal if you want to pay to get it out of the way.
Your looks and style, the best approach is to get yourself in shape for you. Wear the clothes you like. Do the things you like, be your own best self. You absolutely do not need to be stunning in looks, no. But nice enough to be comfortably looked at. Comfortable for you and the one looking. Looks are only the superficial layer but being in shape at least does say something about you, that you care about your physical health.
Beyond that - we are just people! Women are people and we are everywhere. Get used to talking to us like people, make friends, get more comfortable. You need girl friends, not just a girlfriend.
Also I agree that 30s are the worst age to look for a partner, 20s are more open and then around 40 a lot of breakups and movement again. But that doesn’t mean impossible by a long shot. Always there are people looking, especially if you are wanting casual for now.
I don’t get incel vibes from your post. I think some part of your personality is probably off putting. Everyone here is saying therapy, and I think that may help, but I think the bigger issue is you’re probably trying too hard to “be romantic”. Don’t try to recreate a Disney movie.
The best relationships you will have are with people you really connect with. Both in interests and personality. But you have to be someone you would want to be friends with. You may have to find out who you really are again which can be hard. Others won’t like you if you don’t like you.
Confidence and acting natural in any situation is a must. No one wants a worm.
Try this. Start going out to places where people your age congregate…usually a pub etc. Go alone and just go to meet people. Sex isn’t the goal, friendship is. Meet guys or girls it doesn’t matter.
When you do just pretend you’re confident. Fake it until you make it, but be sincere. Don’t use lines or over flatter or keep saying how pretty she is. Just practice enjoying people’s company and be someone who’s company they enjoy. Be funny but not scene stealing or a braggart. Tease but finish with jk jk.I’ve seen the ugliest guys get the hottest girl just because he was confident and funny.
Practice if you have to. Steal jokes if you have to, but make it impressive.
There’s no shame in going to a hooker to break the seal. Don’t look for the cheapest one, spend a little and get a GFE girlfriend experience. Be freshly showered and groomed, tell them you’re a virgin, if you have any way of getting a Cialis before hand definitely take one so your nerves don’t kill your hardon. Do not visit anywhere you think there’s even the most remote possibility of the women being trafficked. Well known establishments or self employed only.
Beyond that, work on self respect. Going to the gym helps both your physique and self respect, if that’s something you’re capable of committing to then it’s one of your best means of self improvement.
Are you respected in your work? Do you respect what you do for work?
How are you around other men? Do you have at least one or two core male friends you can just be a dude around? Maybe ones that are in relationships or are better with women that you can see how to interact with them?
When you have your shit sorted, self respect and some social savvy, women still won’t come to you but they won’t be scared away as easily. Don’t be afraid to go for women you aren’t conventionally attracted to, something you and them can both have fun with even if it isn’t meant to last. Any notch is a confidence boost.
Best of luck brother
Just realize if you see a professional lady she’s going to know her business and will be more comfortable and experienced than non-pro girl you might date or hook up with. I agree, there’s nothing wrong with seeing a pro! But each partner has a different sexual experience level, etc.
I once went through a prolonged “dry spell” after college, mostly self inflicted and was really nervous about dating again. Didn’t have a ton of luck. Paid for an escort for the first and only time, it was surprisingly relaxing and fun. Not at all what I expected. It seems you’ve made your virginity a bit of a bid deal in your head. Might not be the worst idea.
Other than that, the only way to meet women outside of dating apps as an adult is to basically force it in public places. It’s always going to feel a bit weird in my experience. You just have to approach, make some type of small talk and ask if they’d like to get a coffee sometime or something. Most people meet online th se days after school for a reason.
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People can be really shit and I’m so sorry kids were awful to you growing up. That’s horrific.
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Try to find your passions. A coed sport league (anything - football, darts, bowling, doesn’t), board games, art, take a class in music or photography whatever interests you. This will get you around others that SHARE that interest and voila a subject to talk about in common.
Humans want to connect. Maybe you just make some acquaintances, maybe more. Either way you can’t find connections isolated online.
Good luck, I hope you find your tribe and a happier life. Truly, good luck.
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People can be really shit and I’m so sorry kids were awful to you growing up. That’s horrific.
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Try to find your passions. A coed sport league (anything - football, darts, bowling, doesn’t matter what), board games, art, take a class in music or photography whatever interests you. This will get you around others that SHARE that interest and voila a subject to talk about in common.
Humans want to connect. Maybe you just make some acquaintances, maybe more. Either way you can’t find connections isolated online.
Good luck, I hope you find your tribe and a happier life. Truly, good luck.
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Grindr, easy peasy!
For gay hookups, 100%. The thing is, I’m (mostly) heterosexual and want my first time to be with a woman.
I’ve also heard from gay friends that Grindr isn’t that good either.